this day

Today I have to really think about everything I am grateful for....and today it is a very special kind of thinking, real thinking, big thinking....

I am grateful for...
a chance to live
two people who gave me life, helped me to grow up, to become who I am...
the last thirty-two years...
being here, coming here, becoming me
what I can, what I do, what I am
him
him felling in love with me
his patience
his strongest
his ability of living with me
our children, our most beautiful daughter, our most wonderful son
our home
every sunny day
every rainy, cloudy day
him wanting me to recover, to be healthy and strong
him trying to help me, trying to show me the way to recover
him being with me in the most difficult moments
staying here, not leaving
finding my way back to life
finding enough power to recover
finding bright sides of life
wanting to live
every single day that is waiting for me
my friends, my new friends, friends I am trying to find, friends I am going to find
every single conversation I make with other people
my life, every single day of it, every small wonder on my way, every moment I have
myself

It is a day when I can feel again how wonderful life could be....and I hope to forget how it was to be unable to feel grateful for anything...

some preparations

...and a new photo editor....

indoor and outdoor

Actually it is Friday and I should take part on  this moment, but... it is really the first time when I have no such photo to show. I have plenty of nice photos from the last week, but none of them is really special.

Instead I want to show some other things that were happening at our home last week. It was a very rainy week, I did not feel well and neither my little son. So we were most of the time inside, in our kitchen and at our balcony. I decided not to do anything more in garden.... I just have any Idea what to do with all these weeds. I have grabbed it all and was sure to weeded it all last season but NO!!!! It is back and it is everywhere! So I gave up!
No I have some tomatoes, one paprika, herbs and maybe some strawberries and flowers in some pots on my balcony. It looks nice and I hope it will all grow better! I do not have to weed any more. If only I were sure to stay here longer I would build some beds but...it is easier that way. And I can take my pots with me.
It feels really nice to have my own little garden...

 

I want to say big THANK YOU to Frau Kirchkernzeit for her recipe! Bärlauch Pesto is wonderful!
I would like to dedicate her the last photo....something about chaos....

surprise...

Last week I ordered some wool to finish my daughter's doll and some more to learn felting.

And today, just in the middle of that rainy, cold weather and a terrible mood of my son IT came. A huge box full of wonderful colours, freshness, softness....and that incredible smell...I just love it!

Yarn Along

~ Two of my favourite things are knitting and reading, and the evidence of this often shows up in my photographs.  I love seeing what other people are knitting and reading as well. So, what are you knitting or crocheting right now? What are you reading?  ~ joining Ginny from Small Things

I am still working.....Big Thing is still not ready...

I am reading two wonderful books now (both in polish). 
Something classic now: Marshall B. Rosenberg and a very nice little book from Jesper Juul (could not find in english) about saying no! 

 

 Today very shortly....my little boy is not very well...

back to the...woods

After a very difficult weekend...with pain in my back, a lot of weather changes, we decided to go to our forest and find the wild-garlic place my friend told me about. And we found it....and something else too...

..and then it rained and rained....

what made my weekend...

My happiness is made of small things ...my happiness is my new friend....my happiness that I missed so much....my happiness that came back...my happiness that I enjoy and value so much...

my happiness - my small wonders....

That is such a wonderful feeling to see all these small things that make my days beautiful, things I am grateful for, things I admire, love, need...

‘Sometimes’, said Pooh, ‘the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.’

 

 ~ my herb garden

 ~ little girl playing a big girl

 ~ shelves full of books

 ~ best yeast buns with quark ever

~ little man and his doll

  ~ her smile

~ his cars

 ~ some treasure from our neighbours

this moment

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

small wonders

My happiness is made of small things ...my happiness is my new friend....my happiness that I missed so much....my happiness that came back...my happiness that I enjoy and value so much...

my happiness - my small wonders....

~ my little girl having no fear

~ some new fur for our doll-corner

~ lot of new wool, gift from some friend

~ home-made bread

~ home-made mayonnaise

~ home-made vodka (ups!)

 

 

 

Yarn Along

~ Two of my favourite things are knitting and reading, and the evidence of this often shows up in my photographs.  I love seeing what other people are knitting and reading as well. So, what are you knitting or crocheting right now? What are you reading?  ~ joining Ginny from Small Things

I am still working on my big thing! I hope to have it ready for my husband's birthday next month. But there is still so much to do.... I am living all other projects undone and concentrating only on that one...

Do you know this book??? It is a kinder book about little caterpillar (?) that is hungry all the time. So lovely, we bought it in Poland, but I think it is translated to almost all languages.

 

It is nice to be here again!

the way home

 

I have just realized that I do never write anything that would match to the title of my blog. We are polish and we live in Germany but I actually don't write anything special that happens to us here. Maybe because it is not very different, the life we have here from the one we would have there. But that is something I cannot know....I never really lived on my own in Poland. Or maybe because our life is just how it is wherever we are...I am not sure about it all....but now, after we came back from our wonderful holidays with our families, I can see it very clearly....something that makes our life different...the distance....

It is now, when we have children, so difficult to come back home....first days are so sad, so unsure...we do not feel like home, we do not feel safe...first days are full of questions, doubts...is it really good that we are here, should we rather be there...it was never easy to leave Poland behind but now it is even more difficult. I want my children to be able to spend their time with their grandparents, cousins, aunts etc. But we are so far away...our life is here, not there...I know they all do understand it, but....it is just so difficult to arrive home...